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Hey, Yukiko-senpai.

[It's a quiet day, for once, and a day where she can sit and chat with Yukiko out in the living room, for once. She's also holding a container of Yukiko's own homemade ice cream.]

I raided the freezer. Wanna share?

[After the stuff lately? They might need two.]

Sure. Do you have another spoon on you?

Of course!

[She's even hiding a couple of bowls behind her back for the sake of propriety, which she brings out along with the spoons as she sits down.]

Sorry we haven't really talked as much lately...

No, it's ok. I...haven't been as much fun as everyone else as of late.

[The thing with her shadow...how much it hurt. She's honestly surprised that Rise would still talk with her. After all, her thoughts differ from everyone else's.]

We're...not in a fun situation, senpai. I thought I was making the best of it, but I'm realizing I've been selfish.

[She shakes her head.]

Hey, that aside, ice cream. And you. I'm tired of talking about myself for once.

[Selfish? Her?]

Me? I really don't have much...

[Other than boat load of issues that made her distant from everyone else?]|

Senpai...seriously? Surrender to the ice cream of truth, okay? I know you've got a lot on your mind, so just start with something. Anything.

[And the first thing that comes to mind?]

Am I heartless?

Huh? Heartless?

[The question catches Rise completely by surprise, and she doesn't know how to respond for a few seconds.]

Why would anyone think you're heartless?

Well...I did call myself that.

[Her Shadow did but it's a part of her, therefore called herself it.]

Oh. Right.

[Spoonful of ice cream. This is both easier and harder than it would have been without Shadows.]

Well...why do you think you are?

[She wishes she can eat the ice cream right now but her stomach won't allow it.]

Well...I guess...because I'm not like everyone else when it comes to...well...that.

[She meant by not having fun having sex with everyone. Was she the only one who wanted a more meaningful relationship other than on the carnal level? When was the last time they actually went out and did something?]

That's not being heartless, senpai. That's having standards...

[Rise looks away herself. It'll take the threat of the stuff melting before she gets a taste for it back.]

To tell you the truth, I've been worried you guys think I'm a slut now. Well, not Souji. He has no room to talk.

What? A slut? Never thought that about you. Souji on the other hand...he's pretty...how do you say it...anxious?

[The polite way of saying 'yes he's a damn bike'.]

He's a boy.

[Rise waves her hand to dismiss it. She's stopped worrying about it by now...or at least, she'd rather worry about Yukiko and herself.]

But really...I feel like it can't really be okay for me to enjoy this as much as I do, but what am I going to do instead? Torture myself over something I have to do to survive? I wish I had your self-control, senpai, but at the same time it seems like it's hurting you...

...yeah...it has been hurting me.

[Because...she wants more than just sex. Just that certain people she cares about only cares for it.]

I just don't know what to do anymore. The more I feel like I have to hold onto my beliefs...the further I seem to push you all away.

[Without any prompting, Rise reaches out to gently but pretty firmly grab Yukiko's hand.]

Yukiko. You're never going to push me away, okay? Seriously, ask Souji, I'm like a crab or something.

You're not going to not be my friend just because we react differently to this place.

[With the hand grab came another: only it's a hug on her end. She just wanted one of these without anything else attached...just to know that there is someone there not hating her.]

...then why I do feel like it has?

[Rise is surprised for just half a second before she hugs Yukiko right back.]

Senpai...I'm sorry. I've been too caught up in myself. I wasn't there when you needed me for...for all the other stuff, like actually being a friend.

[She can't speak for anyone else, but she's perfectly aware of her own shortcomings here. She thinks.]

Heh. I have one thing I contribute to the team and I wasn't doing it...

No...you had other things to focus on than myself. It's okay...it's my fault not yours.

I'm just...guess I'm not good enough for everyone here. Even I think so.

Nothing is more important to me than my friends, okay? All of you.

I mean, you guys are the first ones I've ever really had, so...

Yeah...I...understand how you feel. Before all of this...it was just me and Chie.

Sometimes I just worry...like if I'm being a stick in the mud or if I end up doing something wrong that someone ends up pushing me out...

[Hugging tighter now.]

[Rise takes a deep breath to keep herself calm in the middle of this.]

If you don't want to do something, or if you do want to do something, it's not being a stick in the mud, okay? It's being you, and there's not a single thing wrong with being you.

[Nothing wrong with being her huh? She says not a word but keeps on hugging.

Ice cream probably melted by now but hey, milkshakes at least?]

[Pouring melted ice cream in a cup and calling it a milkshake is pretty much exactly what Rise does in this specific situation, yes.]

(Most likely you'll get protag!Kanji AU. SISTERS VERY WELCOME. If they're from a different continuity we'll figure something out.)

(Keeping the Persona train going.

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Yukiko Amagi | Persona 4 | Canon or CRAU welcome

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Kanji Tatsumi | P4 | canon or game-based welcome

Naoki Konishi | P4

Rise Kujikawa | P4 | Canon or Amat