mazeofrelationships | Matt and Lance: Accidentally in Love

[It's something that maybe someone should tell Lance about himself, lay out what exactly he does for the team that he himself can't seen. Matt is incredibly intelligent. Lance has see him babbling over tech with Hunk and Pidge, using words that just sound so foreign to his ears like it was Chinese or Russian.]

Nah, I'm the asshole in this relationship.

[He smiles as he says it, making it appear like he's really just joking, but deep down inside Lance still feels like he's dead weight amongst the team. There's a reason he offered to step down and give Keith back Red when Allura showed how quickly she picked up piloting Blue. He still thinks the team deserves the best soldiers, something he'll probably never be. Lance is just waiting for the day when they all realize what he's been trying to tell them all along and give him the old heave ho.]

Everybody knows what they're fighting for. They don't need me to tell them.

[All they need for him to be around for as a reminder is to remember that just because Blue picked Lance first doesn't mean they actually have to keep him. But this isn't about him and more about the man kissing him like he's something precious, a man so brave and so smart that Lance can't really think of a strong reason why Matt would want to be with him.]

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[Matt pulls back and smiles at Lance, shaking his head. He wishes he could show the other man how much he means to the team and how much he means to him. The more time he's been spending with him, the more he realizes how wonderful and amazing he is.]

One day, Lance. I'll find some way to show you how much you mean to not just me, but everyone.

[Pulling back a bit, he nods to Red's console.]

Probably should get going. Just so we don't end up a target.

[It's hard to just drop all the pre-conceived notions Lance has of himself, the lofty goals he sets for himself that he finds impossible to reach yet he's too stubborn to set lower more realistic ones. The cycle is born from there and has been around for so long that Lance doesn't know how to change this path of thinking just yet.]

Yeah, sure. If I let anything happen to you, Pidge'll murder me.

[And Lance enjoys breathing, so he turns to put Red back on course. ]

Speaking of Pidge... Did you tell her?

[Matt doesn't care if it takes years, he's in it for the long haul, and determined to show Lance how much he means to everyone. Leaning up, he kisses him on the cheek, then settles back in his chair.]

Yeah, I did. I think she was surprised, but she's glad I'm happy.

[He shrugs.]

She really isn't that scary. I think she pokes at you mostly because you react amusingly. Honestly, she really does like you.

Oh right, you say she's not scary but you're not the one getting punched and kicked and shocked by her. Babe, your sis is concentrated evil in a bite sized package.

[Lance doesn't like that Matt is so far away from him now so he slides a leg backwards, hooking his foot behind one of Matt's ankles. There. Thank goodness for long limbs as it gets him the physical contact he craves even in awkward positions.]

Oh, I know that well. Right on the launch pad, as I was about to go to Kerberos, she elbows me hard enough that I fall over. Right there in front of everyone!

[He shakes his head, grumbling a bit to himself. He scoots forward again, putting his hand on Lance's arm.]

[They're nearing the swap moon and Lance begins readying Red for landing, swerving to the left to avoid a speeding shuttle coming out of what stands for the Space Mall parking lot. A mouthed YOU STUPID IDIOT and middle finger from the Blue Paladin the most polite greeting Lance can think of giving that pilot.

He is the worst kind of driver.]

Why does Pidge's love hurt so much?

[He will never understand that girl's penchant for violence towards those she cares for. Much like how he antagonized Keith because he admired him, right? Lance has issues looking at his own behavior sometimes.]

So I guess I'll be showing up in your room with more bruises from her now that we're a thing?

[Matt makes a mental note to always be the one to drive when they get back to Earth, or really any time on land. He is increasingly certain that pilots in general are the scariest kind of drivers.

However, he just shrugs a bit.]

Not sure where she got the violence. She got the temper from Mom, though. Dad and I tend to be more chill. Until someone really pushes our buttons, and then we explode.

[There's a wry smile on his face, and he leans in, whispering gently by Lance's ear.]

I thought you liked it rough, though.

Fuck.

[Any complaints about Matt's family genes flies right out the window with his breath ghosting along Lance's ear and that little drop of filth in that tone of voice. It's by sheer miracle that Lance doesn't pop an immediate boner (or perhaps it's because his body knows how uncomfortable that will be in his flight suit), but Matt really is not helping Lance park this Lion baby straight.]

You know I do. I'm still waiting for you to push me across whatever flat surface you can find and have your way with me.

[And Lance is not helping himself there either.]

I'll keep that in mind. I have been waiting for just the right moment.

[Preferably one where they won't be walked in on by his sister. Maybe someone else, but definitely not Pidge.]

Or maybe I'll have to have you against a wall next time one of your fangirls tries to flirt.

[Now he's just teasing. Maybe.]

[He too has been waiting for the right moment, but Lance is constantly horny pre and post Matt. That's basically a given.

With the Lion set into place and Pidge's fantastic cloaking tech setting into hiding, Lance leans back into his chair and looks up at Matt with a smirk.]

Sounds like somebody's jealous.

[Lance is obviously teasing because in truth, he can't imagine why Matt would ever be. Those girls mean nothing to Lance now, he never actually had a chance with them once they discovered how big of a dork he really was, and most importantly, Lance doesn't think he's worthy of having someone feel that over him.]

Not really. They can flirt, but you're mine.

[He smirks, but after a moment, he just blushes and shakes his head.]

Ok, I can't even keep that up. Yeah, I am a bit worried about losing you, but that's just years of anxiety coming out.

Losing me? Me?

[Lance can't quite believe the words that are coming out of Matt's mouth. No one is losing Lance, not in this form. It's not like Lance has many other options out there for boyfriends, especially ones as hot and smart and cool as Matthew Holt. In Lance's view, he's the one who should be worried. Matt, with that ponytail ripe for pulling, looking pretty damn muscular under his armor? He's more at risk of being stolen away than Lance is.

His eyebrows knit together in Lance's attempt to figure out how to word this delicately.]

Hey, idiot. I'm not going anywhere. You'll have to dump me first, okay? That's more likely to happen than anything else.

[Yep, that's sure delicate, alright.]

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[Matt can't help a small snort at that, shaking his head.]

Nope. Not going to happen. I fell in love with you, and, well. The Holt family tends to fall hard when they fall in love.

[Leaning over, he kisses Lance gently on the lips, lingering for a moment before pulling back.]

Like I said. Stupid old anxieties.

[Wait. Hold on a tick. Did Matt just say he fell in love with Lance?

Lance is pretty sure his hearing still works regardless of how many knocks to ol' noggin he's received in his time of being Paladin. He's sure he still speaks English fluently and Matt didn't just spew Italian at him and something just went wrong in translation. None of that happened, yet Lance still needs to hear those words one more time, the phrase that just sent the proverbial butterflies to his stomach and made his heart skip more than just a few beats.

He grabs onto the front of Matt's cape, and holds him in place, nervous blue eyes searching the other man's face for clues that this is the universe playing a cruel joke on him.]

You... love me?

[Maybe the inside of Red in a parking lot on a swap moon isn't the best place for this kind of conversation, but they're here already. Might as well go whole hog.]

Yeah?

[Matt's eyes widen a bit and he blushes, looking extremely anxious and more than a bit vulnerable.]

I love you. Just... you bring so much life and so much laughter to everything, and you have a heart as big as a red hypergiant star, and you are a lot smarter than you think you are, not to mention, you have really good battle instincts.

[He pauses and smirks.]

And the fact that you're hot as hell is a bonus.

[Lance has to turn his face away from Matt when he says all those nice things about him. No one, other than his family, has ever given Lance compliments like that. One would wonder where he got all that self-confidence from then, but a good portion of that is hot air in an attempt to love himself if no one else would.

But Matt here does. He definitely does and he lays it out in a way Lance wasn't prepared to hear. For all he questions his place in life, there's no way Lance can question where he falls in Matt's life.

So when he turns back to face Matt, those blue eyes are shining with unshead tears and a smile is growing on his face. Yep, Mr. Holt. Your boyfriend's a giant fucking sap.]

I love you too, my asshole.

[He wants to kiss him. Can he kiss him? He's definitely yanking Matt in by the collar and kissing him. Don't even try to stop him.]

[He grins, his entire face lighting up brightly for a moment, before wrapping his arms around Lance and holding him close, kissing back furiously. He lets it linger for a long moment before breaking it, and just grinning stupidly at his boyfriend.

He likes sap, he loves romance, and the fact that Lance does too, well, that just makes things perfect. Somehow, this moment here in a flying robot lion ]

Didn't think I'd get to hear that from you, but I'm taking it and running.

[If Lance could have Matt's bright face in his view for the rest of his life, he'll want for nothing else. Just Matt being happy, after suffering so much for so long, with Lance being the reason he shines this way. Who would be the fool to look a gift horse in the mouth?]

My bad. I was scared that you didn't feel the same way. [Hands cupping Matt's face, Lance plants another kiss on those lips before laughing.] We haven't even gone on our first date yet. We keep doing this ass backwards.

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[Matt kisses him back, laughing a bit into it.]

You know, if things turn out this well, I don't think I care that it's all backwards. Besides, you have a fantastic ass.

[He pulls back, a shining hint of... something in his eyes, still grinning.]

You know, if we don't go now, we'll just sit in here and be sappy at each other and make out. And as wonderful as that sounds, I think we'd both rather do something.

I do, don't I? [Lance shimmies his hips a little as he stands up and takes a stretch.] All that yoga is definitely paying off.

[Also squats. Never forget the squats.]

Yeah, and we do need more lube or us doing something ain't gonna happen for a very long time.

[One more kiss because Lance is a greedy gremlin, and he's leaning away to press the button to open Red's hatch.]

Come on, let's go because I show you what this ass do.

[He just laughs, kissing Lance back, eyes sparkling.]

Oh, we can't have that. Let's make sure to get the large size, because I really don't want to have to keep my hands off of you.

[Reaching over, he grabs Lance's hand, grin never leaving his face.]

Let's go, love.

Then I'll ask them to special order the gallon jug.

[Lance brings their hands up to his mouth, pressing his lips against the back of Matt's hand. God, he's so disgustingly in love with this brilliant scientist that he doesn't even know what to do right now. He feels like running. Running away and dragging Matt with him to some peaceful planet where there'll never be any Galra, no reminders of torture or war, just them and all the time in the world to enjoy each other's company.

But he can't do that so the next best thing is to run into the space mall, stopping at the fountain at the entrance.]

Okay, mi cariño, what's our first stop?

[Matt blushes furiously as Lance kisses the back of his hand, grinning like a nut. He leans over and kisses his boyfriend's cheek, and then follows him into the mall, laughing.

When they get in, he just stares for a moment, eyes wide, and a grin crossing his face.]

Ok, this really is as cool as everyone said. I have no idea where to go, though.

[He smiles a bit shyly at the pet name.]

Although... I like you calling me that. It sounds really sweet.

I know, right? If you heard Coran describe it, you'd expect it to look like some back alley black market with a bunch of sketchy aliens in trench coats trying to sell you stolen silverware.

[He tilts his head curiously and then nods, realizing that if he's going to throw pet names around, he should at least explain some of them first.]

Mi cariño? My love. Or my darling. [Slowly but surely, Lance is going to teach Matt Spanish through terms of endearment.] Do you want to hit up Terra for all the Earth goodies first or split up and explore on your own?

[Either option works for Lance, especially since he's scheming on sneaking away from Matt for a little bit due to Reasons anyway.]

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ugh that was supposed to be "before" not "because". stupid typos

Typos happen. No worries. I am not fussed.

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